In Answer To A Question
“Help me here,
what kinda guy are you? You stalked her back when she sold her house.
But said something? Dont make sense. Help me here. And you keep
saying about the kinda guy you are, style and all, but you stalk her.
Help me here? “
I’ll help you and
explain. In short, back when she was selling her house, I looked it
up online, then felt that I shouldn’t have and message London to
tell what I’d done and apologise.
In more detail, I
have always tried to give London Andrews some privacy. London Andrews
is not a fantasy, she’s a real girl with a real life away from
modelling, under her real name and in private we talked a lot about
this. But, there were areas I left alone unless she raised them,
family etc.
Tempting as it was
to ask about these things, I resisted and left to her open these type
of conversations. I held that some parts of her life were private and
left things there.
So, London has here
on the market in 2019 and I give in to temptation and look it up
online, yes, in affect stalking. But I felt guilty for invading her
privacy, so I felt the need to apologise and I did.
Why ? Because that’s
the kind of guy I am !
As you commented in
the question, I said things about ‘what kind of guy ‘ I am and
about ‘my style’. I’ll explain a little with something I posted
long ago – so I’ve not just made this up.
I posted this back
in June of 2022, on several of my personal accounts ( see links
below) just after my final (or I thought final) falling out with
London over on MeWe on her Naturist Lady account.
And I’d done this
for a very specific reason.
Twice, first when I
had begun to chat to London online and she asked me why I’m like am
?Think about that question ? Then, again when London asked me about
myself when she was pretending to her friend, Naturist Lady. I shared
the same thing, the same post, the piece. The same few paragraphs.
Because they are important to because to a very large extent they
define me. I have tried to live by this for decades. This is what I
am like : does this help ?
Raymond Chandler
The Simple Art of
Murder
An Essay
(1950)
"But down these
mean streets a man must go who is not himself mean, who is neither
tarnished nor afraid. The detective in this kind of story must be
such a man. He is the hero; he is everything. He must be a complete
man and a common man and yet an unusual man. He must be, to use a
rather weathered phrase, a man of honor-by instinct, by
inevitability, without thought of it, and certainly without saying
it. He must be the best man in his world and a good enough man for
any world. I do not care much about his private life; he is neither a
eunuch nor a satyr; I think he might seduce a duchess and I am quite
sure he would not spoil a virgin; if he is a man of honor in one
thing, he is that in all things.
He is a relatively
poor man, or he would not be a detective at all. He is a common man
or he could not go among common people. He has a sense of character,
or he would not know his job. He will take no man's money dishonestly
and no man's insolence without a due and dispassionate revenge. He is
a lonely man and his pride is that you will treat him as a proud man
or be very sorry you ever saw him. He talks as the man of his age
talks-that is, with rude wit, a lively sense of the grotesque, a
disgust for sham, and a contempt for pettiness.
The story is this
man's adventure in search of a hidden truth, and it would be no
adventure if it did not happen to a man fit for adventure. He has a
range of awareness that startles you, but it belongs to him by right,
because it belongs to the world he lives in. If there were enough
like him, the world would be a very safe place to live in, without
becoming too dull to be worth living in."
By Raymond Chandler
The Simple Art of
Murder
An Essay
(1950)
