LONDON : IN HER OWN WORD 2019
An introduction to London Andrews Part 9
The following is a recreation of a series of posts London did back at the start of 2019, telling her story in her own words.
(Part 9 of 12) A year later, when my grandmother got sick, my Mom asked me if I would quit my grooming job to watch over my grandfather, “I don’t agree with your ‘modeling’ but your schedule was so flexible and your grandfather needs someone right now. No one else in the family can do it” - I begged my boss at the grooming shop for a month off without pay. I loved the dogs and I loved my clients. I had been there for a year but they denied my request….. So I quit my grooming job and returned to modeling….. I hungout with my grandfather during the week and modeled part-time….BUT even a full year later, I was still terrified of working with photographers. Extreme PTSD. Still sitting in my car, begging myself to go to work. Putting on my makeup, crying, trying not to ruin my mascara - One night, I unloaded on my blog about how unhappy I was. How modeling had become a burden. The same job that once made me feel powerful, made me feel vulnerable and unsafe … A follower wrote, “London, you have been modeling for 10 years. Buy a camera and photograph yourself…. Create a Patreon. It is a website for folks that self-create. Just remove the part of your job that gives you anxiety and keep on creating! ” (at Rochester, New York)
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